The Little Sadnesses

The little sadness’s of every day
They weigh upon my heart, my soul, my being
And despite every sweet soft word they say
The respite’s not enough to let me sing

The weary day, which darkens in the east
The fading light, which hearkens to the west
I cannot hear the star’s song in the least
And never was I worst than at my best

Losing ground and time and life now, quicker
Then the rushing waves and changing tides
When we all were young than we would bicker
But now the empty memories subside

The lost are lost, they never could be saved
This road is broken, which they tried to pave.

Willow Leaves

Wherever, whomever, whatever it be
I will stay there, right beside thee
Why ever, how ever, do not ask me
I do not know, I need no decree

For ever, for never, whoever was sure?
I have never known naught and I cannot concur
For time is unfaithful and lovers are bound
By time and by space and by love and by sound

There is all, there is naught, there is only me
I am full, I am hollow, I'm blind and I see
Wherever I go, should I know where I am
I can only be lost, I will always be damned

Why ever, now never, is all that is left
The giving and taking has left me bereft
And only you always leave me this way
Filled full of words and with nothing to say

A Fallen Star Will Yearn For Home

Surrounded by the cold night, she burns bright
But longs for many things a star should not
And so she falls and releases her light
Inside a tangled web she is now caught

There is a reason stars are far away
Far from all things which may wander too near
She burned too hot to stand the heat of day
The world was strange and filled her heart with fear

That which had pulled her down still had a hold
And she continued seeking for its source
But the fire inside had turned cold
And her decision now held much remorse

Oh true, she had found love and it was sweet
But she did not belong and oft it showed
Her spark and passion had lost most its heat
The weight of life became a heavy load

It happens when a star falls down to earth
And tries to be that which it knows its not
It loses most its warmth and most its mirth
Into a tangled web, the star is caught

But sometimes for the star it is enough
To learn of things it never would have known
To have learned love, although it might be rough
To trade fire for a light that different' shone

A fallen star will sometimes yearn for home
But even if she could, she would not leave
The tangled web that would not let her roam
Now holds her safe in its protective sieve

A star that comes to earth will change too much
To ever live alone within the sky
They learn to love to laugh to dream as such
That in the empty night they would now die

Sometimes a star will gaze into the night
And feel a tug for home, and miss the song
That she once sang and sent out on her light
And for the past she will begin to long

But the earth is full of those who fell
Who once looked down and wanted to be more
They saw life and love,and could not quell
The longing which took root within their core

Because the stars are watchers of the worlds
They watch the joy and sorrow, life and death
Turtles of the sky, around they swirled
Their lives too long, too slow to see a breath

Some never learn to bear the joy and pain
To bear the quickness with which seasons change
Some never adapt, driven insane
Some keep themselves apart and out of range

But others find they've gained more than they lost
And see the stars and do not need their song
The love they gained was more than worth the cost
They once more hear their song, and sing along

Midnight Confessions

I think of you now
In these moments before sleep
My memory brings images of your smile
The sound of your laugh
I can summon the feeling of your arms surrounding me, protecting me
If I close my eyes and imagine hard enough
I can feel phantom arms encircling me
And hear your soft whispers close to my ear
My heart feels strange
It is a sensation unfamiliar
Of love and longing all tangled up with one another
You are my star
Shining bright
Among so many stars in the sky
And yet to me
No other could ever match your brilliance
No other star holds for me the same wonder
I love you

Insomnia

The moon rises and new nightmares haunt my dreams
Sometimes I fear to close my eyes
Because they are right beneath the surface

I cannot tell now
If they are nightmares
Or dark omens of what awaits me
I have lost my hope
I have lost myself

Shadows are hunting me
They wait behind closed eyelids
And rooms where the light has fled
I wonder, what if this is all that is left?

And each night I wish for more pleasant dreams
But even my best memories
Cannot always keep the monsters at bay

And when I remember those times of joy, I wonder
If they were naught but beautiful dreams
Created by a mind which longed for peace
A hope fueled fantasy
Which has faded into dim remembrance

I search for the mistake
The one which opened the doorway
And allowed these demons access to my mind
But no matter how I try I cannot find it
My search yields nothing

The gate will not hold forever
The shadows are breaking through
I wish for peace

The Key to my Castle (Is Yours) ♥

My heart, it is a stone castle of old,
With a stone gate which gardens do surround
The multitude pass by, it is unfound
But in the garden tread some of the bold

And further still, into the parlor some
Are entertained with high tea for the day
Then most depart and even fewer stay,
To wander corridors, some light, some glum,

A select few have rooms, should they depart,
Open for them, these rooms shall always be,
But unto you have I given the key
The key to every room within my heart

The second that you walked in through the doors
I saw then that my heart was always yours
♥

A Letter to my Beloved

This day mine eye looked into heaven's face,
And gazed upon the beauty passing there,
And contemplated then thy simple grace,
Compared to thee, the heavens seemed not fair

The light thee radiates, thy wit and charm,
Hath thus enraptured both mine heart and mind
Even the stout of heart, thee will disarm
With but thy smile, the sad will, thus, joy find

Thou art the sun, a bright and stately thing,
That though a cloud may overshadow thee
The light and beauty which thou alwayst brings,
Shines ever through, and can by all, be seen

Thou art so great, thy radiance so fair,
However far I be, it reach me there