Midnight Confessions

I think of you now
In these moments before sleep
My memory brings images of your smile
The sound of your laugh
I can summon the feeling of your arms surrounding me, protecting me
If I close my eyes and imagine hard enough
I can feel phantom arms encircling me
And hear your soft whispers close to my ear
My heart feels strange
It is a sensation unfamiliar
Of love and longing all tangled up with one another
You are my star
Shining bright
Among so many stars in the sky
And yet to me
No other could ever match your brilliance
No other star holds for me the same wonder
I love you

Insomnia

The moon rises and new nightmares haunt my dreams
Sometimes I fear to close my eyes
Because they are right beneath the surface

I cannot tell now
If they are nightmares
Or dark omens of what awaits me
I have lost my hope
I have lost myself

Shadows are hunting me
They wait behind closed eyelids
And rooms where the light has fled
I wonder, what if this is all that is left?

And each night I wish for more pleasant dreams
But even my best memories
Cannot always keep the monsters at bay

And when I remember those times of joy, I wonder
If they were naught but beautiful dreams
Created by a mind which longed for peace
A hope fueled fantasy
Which has faded into dim remembrance

I search for the mistake
The one which opened the doorway
And allowed these demons access to my mind
But no matter how I try I cannot find it
My search yields nothing

The gate will not hold forever
The shadows are breaking through
I wish for peace

The Key to my Castle (Is Yours) ♥

My heart, it is a stone castle of old,
With a stone gate which gardens do surround
The multitude pass by, it is unfound
But in the garden tread some of the bold

And further still, into the parlor some
Are entertained with high tea for the day
Then most depart and even fewer stay,
To wander corridors, some light, some glum,

A select few have rooms, should they depart,
Open for them, these rooms shall always be,
But unto you have I given the key
The key to every room within my heart

The second that you walked in through the doors
I saw then that my heart was always yours
♥

A Letter to my Beloved

This day mine eye looked into heaven's face,
And gazed upon the beauty passing there,
And contemplated then thy simple grace,
Compared to thee, the heavens seemed not fair

The light thee radiates, thy wit and charm,
Hath thus enraptured both mine heart and mind
Even the stout of heart, thee will disarm
With but thy smile, the sad will, thus, joy find

Thou art the sun, a bright and stately thing,
That though a cloud may overshadow thee
The light and beauty which thou alwayst brings,
Shines ever through, and can by all, be seen

Thou art so great, thy radiance so fair,
However far I be, it reach me there

For Sarah

To my love, my knight, my light;
To my angel, shining bright,
Golden sun and ray of dawn,
And when the whole world is gone,
My love for you will still live on

Warning Label

As a child, no one gave me fair warning
None told me love was full of pain and tears
My mother did not sit me down and warn me
That after love, despair is all you hear

Perhaps if they had told me of the pain
The sorrow and the heartache that would follow
Then from all of this I would have abstained
Then my heart would not feel quite so hollow

I think now of the quote "to love and lose"
And wonder if for me, the quote holds true
Once happy memories, now bring the blues
And smiles now for me are rare and few

Yet through my tears your love has brought me light
Has altered me, forever changed my sight

Charades

Four letters
One syllable
Sounds like shove
My hearts been shoved down a flight of stairs

First letter is L
As in Lost
I seem to be lost without you

Last letter is E
As in Endless
Sometimes this heartache seems endless

Second letter is O
As in Obedient
My heart followed obediently to its destruction

Third letter is V
As in Victorious
In Love, Heartache is the only Victor

Synonyms include
Affection,
(Thief, Sorrow)

Amour,
(Heartache,
Calamity)

and Fondness
(Lonliness,
Insecurity)

Definitions include:
a strong positive emotion of regard and affection
butterflies and giggling
any object of warm affection or devotion
knowing all else pales in comparison
beloved, a beloved person
having meaning and value greater than all the world combined
be enamored or in love with
feeling complete

Commonly associated words:
Loss, heartache despair,
You