Sweet young lovers love with passion true
Ferocious flame within, kindled by two
And all around these fires burning bright
Feel deep within the chilling lonely night
And so with desperate kisses, pleading touch
Sad lonely souls speak little, asking much
Sparking dying embers, longing for more
Unsatisfied with now and with before
Searching for more, they lose what might have been
Instead of heart to heart, just skin to skin
Sometimes sad lovers learn to love again
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
We Reach the End
By times cruel passage have we all been brought
And lost, within waves of oblivion
Love to be found, and dreams we might have sought
Have thus been cast from our dominion
Fate, sometimes so sweet, now tastes quite bitter
And all we might have been's gone with the dust
The trials and the terrors we have endured
Seem now to burdensome to ever be just
The choices have been made- the lines been cast
We are too broken now to then repair
And though often we dream of times long past
We know, never shall we returneth there
For mistakes, once made, none can undue
And lies we tell ourselves the most untrue
And lost, within waves of oblivion
Love to be found, and dreams we might have sought
Have thus been cast from our dominion
Fate, sometimes so sweet, now tastes quite bitter
And all we might have been's gone with the dust
The trials and the terrors we have endured
Seem now to burdensome to ever be just
The choices have been made- the lines been cast
We are too broken now to then repair
And though often we dream of times long past
We know, never shall we returneth there
For mistakes, once made, none can undue
And lies we tell ourselves the most untrue
Hopelessly In Denial
I can't decide what you are more
irritating or intriguing?
Of course, for me, its both.
I can't stand the sight of you
But I can't stand the absence of you either
And of course,
You don't care.
Not if I think you're
irritating
Not even if I think you're
intriguing.
But I don't care, either.
Why should I?
Why would I care
that you don't care?
And
why would I care
that you don't care
that I don't care?
Who cares what you do or don't care about?
Not me!
You voice you're opinion so strongly,
it intrigues me,
piques my interest.
But then
I remember what you don't care about
And you just irritate me.
I roll my eyes
and walk away.
And
of course
you don't notice.
But I didn't really notice
that you didn't notice.
I was too busy not caring.
I walk by and I see
that you're reading my favorite book.
Not like I was paying attention
to you,
I just noticed the book.
So I went over and mentioned
how much I love it.
You barely notice.
You barely notice,
but barely is something.
It means you did notice
just
an itty bitty bit.
I smile.
But I don't care,
not really.
I barely even noticed that
you barely noticed.
In fact, I'm paying so little attention
to you
that when I turn around
I don't notice
the gaze in my direction,
the look you give me.
But what does it mater?
I don't really care
Right?
Katches
Confused as one but they are two
Though perhaps the former is more true
With one another they laugh and sigh
Though sometimes their tempers fly
And though their livevs may sometimes shift
From one another, they'd never drift
For their friendship's assuredly strong
And love is but the best of bonds
Of course, often, they make mistakes
And sometimes different paths they take
But no matter what, their whole lives through
Best friends they'll be, both me and you!
Though perhaps the former is more true
With one another they laugh and sigh
Though sometimes their tempers fly
And though their livevs may sometimes shift
From one another, they'd never drift
For their friendship's assuredly strong
And love is but the best of bonds
Of course, often, they make mistakes
And sometimes different paths they take
But no matter what, their whole lives through
Best friends they'll be, both me and you!
Words Call to Skin
I call to you
Using my words
To wrap gently around you
Caressing your thigh, oh so softly
Fingers of verbs and nouns
Running fingertips down
Your spine
Until you look up, shivering
Knowing the power of my voice
The strenth of my thought
Turned to sound
They call to you
Who Is She?
Who is She?
This child who is not a child,
This woman refusing what she has become?
A child who must grow up
A girl who wishes to run away
Not to face age
Or adulthood
A girl who is a woman
But still a child
Who screams out for wings
To fly away
To run from her problems
And escape to that place where children
Remain children
But the wind brings back her cream
Leaving no reply
And so this child who is not a child
Is forced to ask herself
Why she, who is a woman, is still a child
And she asks,
Who am I?
This child who is not a child,
This woman refusing what she has become?
A child who must grow up
A girl who wishes to run away
Not to face age
Or adulthood
A girl who is a woman
But still a child
Who screams out for wings
To fly away
To run from her problems
And escape to that place where children
Remain children
But the wind brings back her cream
Leaving no reply
And so this child who is not a child
Is forced to ask herself
Why she, who is a woman, is still a child
And she asks,
Who am I?
Trapped in a False Eden
Trapped in a false Eden
Mountain walls climb high holding in
The lost
Tempting is the forbidden fruit
But hidden
Hidden away like the untrue paradise
Surrounded by another kind of forbidden fruit
Guards set their piercing stare
Keeping us enclosed
Too far from what I seek
Their power misused and abused
Held in front of lost children
Children without home
Or family
Home has become a place
Seen only on weekends and holidays
Guards set their piercing eyes
Daring one to grab for the fruit
A false Eden of whispered lies
Segregated from society
Eden of the Lost
Mountain walls climb high holding in
The lost
Tempting is the forbidden fruit
But hidden
Hidden away like the untrue paradise
Surrounded by another kind of forbidden fruit
Guards set their piercing stare
Keeping us enclosed
Too far from what I seek
Their power misused and abused
Held in front of lost children
Children without home
Or family
Home has become a place
Seen only on weekends and holidays
Guards set their piercing eyes
Daring one to grab for the fruit
A false Eden of whispered lies
Segregated from society
Eden of the Lost
Sequel to: My Heart Shaped Sharpener or When My Sharpnener Broke
Long ago
I leaned far over a concrete ledge
So far from the ground
And I posed a question;
Then you said
"I'll never let you fall"
Now as I lay far away from you
In distance
With my heart a million miles
From you
Or maybe right beside you
And as I lay in a bed
That's not my own
I ponder your reply
With the red sun high
In smoke covered skies
I wonder
Where were you when I fell?
I leaned far over a concrete ledge
So far from the ground
And I posed a question;
Then you said
"I'll never let you fall"
Now as I lay far away from you
In distance
With my heart a million miles
From you
Or maybe right beside you
And as I lay in a bed
That's not my own
I ponder your reply
With the red sun high
In smoke covered skies
I wonder
Where were you when I fell?
My Heart Shaped Sharpener
Your fingertips run softly across my skin
Causing me to pull closer and draw in breath
You hold me in you arms
So softly
As if I were fragile or precious
Something rare and delicate
You kiss me and it feels as if you hold my life somehow
with your lips
My eyelids flutter
As my fingertips trace the soft
Curve of your ear
You know I'm teasing you
And I giggle
I sit on the thin concrete wall
Suspended over four stories of empty space
And your hands reach out and pull me back
Keeping me safe
You tell me you'll never let me fall
I smile and lean against your chest
Letting your arms encircle my body
As I hold on to you
My last anchor
We spend most the night in each others' arms
Surrounded by strangers
But truly
We are together and alone
In our own world
Safe from outside intrusion
Suddenly I'm afraid
Afraid of losing this moment
And this night
Afraid of it disappearing into a catalog of memories
I'm afraid of losing you
Almost as afraid as the first night we said goodbye
You hold me closer and I'm glad
But as I lay against you
I realize I don't have to cry anymore
I have you
And I believe I always will
Causing me to pull closer and draw in breath
You hold me in you arms
So softly
As if I were fragile or precious
Something rare and delicate
You kiss me and it feels as if you hold my life somehow
with your lips
My eyelids flutter
As my fingertips trace the soft
Curve of your ear
You know I'm teasing you
And I giggle
I sit on the thin concrete wall
Suspended over four stories of empty space
And your hands reach out and pull me back
Keeping me safe
You tell me you'll never let me fall
I smile and lean against your chest
Letting your arms encircle my body
As I hold on to you
My last anchor
We spend most the night in each others' arms
Surrounded by strangers
But truly
We are together and alone
In our own world
Safe from outside intrusion
Suddenly I'm afraid
Afraid of losing this moment
And this night
Afraid of it disappearing into a catalog of memories
I'm afraid of losing you
Almost as afraid as the first night we said goodbye
You hold me closer and I'm glad
But as I lay against you
I realize I don't have to cry anymore
I have you
And I believe I always will
Blossoms
I sat watching
As golden hair fell to the floor
And I stared at a woman
Who was not mother
And a girl who was her daughter,
A girl who was not my sister,
And as I sat
I saw her
Standing tall and still
Slender white arms stretched towards
The sky
Reaching
A soft flowing dress of green
Ornamented with pink blossoms
Fingers outstretched
At her feet
Grass blew
Surrounded more so by dead things
Left alone
With things
That were not her brothers or sisters
In a land that was no longer
Her home
Alone
And I cried
As golden hair fell to the floor
And I stared at a woman
Who was not mother
And a girl who was her daughter,
A girl who was not my sister,
And as I sat
I saw her
Standing tall and still
Slender white arms stretched towards
The sky
Reaching
A soft flowing dress of green
Ornamented with pink blossoms
Fingers outstretched
At her feet
Grass blew
Surrounded more so by dead things
Left alone
With things
That were not her brothers or sisters
In a land that was no longer
Her home
Alone
And I cried
A Heart of Ash
Everything must pass away
I thought upon an autumn day
As the cold sun sunk to the west
I clutched the dagger to my chest
The road which brought me to this place
Was dark and empty, lacking grace
It was a stormy path I'd tread
Turning my being, into lead
Gone from my chest, inside all hollow
I chased love and death had followed
But escaping was the trick
My body fine, my heart was sick
And so I sat and watched the sun
Knowing now the pain was done
The cold sun sunk into the west
I sunk the dagger in my chest
I thought upon an autumn day
As the cold sun sunk to the west
I clutched the dagger to my chest
The road which brought me to this place
Was dark and empty, lacking grace
It was a stormy path I'd tread
Turning my being, into lead
Gone from my chest, inside all hollow
I chased love and death had followed
But escaping was the trick
My body fine, my heart was sick
And so I sat and watched the sun
Knowing now the pain was done
The cold sun sunk into the west
I sunk the dagger in my chest
Losing Innocence
Dreams of children fall apart
The first time that you break your heart
Stars turn deaf ears to those who wish
The rain is tears instead of a kiss
Flowers silence their now mute souls
Creating in your heart a hole
A child's god, Once Upon A Time
Has left this child with naught but rhymes
No promise of flight liners in the air
No secret land, enchanting and fair
A voice echoes aloneat night
The stars still shine, but you cannot find the light
The trees won't speak, the tides won't play
She begs , but fairytales have flown away
In a land where flowers lie
A child must grow up- or die
The first time that you break your heart
Stars turn deaf ears to those who wish
The rain is tears instead of a kiss
Flowers silence their now mute souls
Creating in your heart a hole
A child's god, Once Upon A Time
Has left this child with naught but rhymes
No promise of flight liners in the air
No secret land, enchanting and fair
A voice echoes aloneat night
The stars still shine, but you cannot find the light
The trees won't speak, the tides won't play
She begs , but fairytales have flown away
In a land where flowers lie
A child must grow up- or die
Missing
The soft pattering rain
Dripping silently through an almost grey sky
No stars
Tears falling from heaven for comfort
Consolation for many things
No stars
And no arms
No warm steadying hands
-Standing still-
Listening
Almost silent splashes
As the skies tears
Glimmer off the cold concrete
Lost in the falling rain
Almost filling an empty void
The world's pain
Almost
But there were no stars
Dripping silently through an almost grey sky
No stars
Tears falling from heaven for comfort
Consolation for many things
No stars
And no arms
No warm steadying hands
-Standing still-
Listening
Almost silent splashes
As the skies tears
Glimmer off the cold concrete
Lost in the falling rain
Almost filling an empty void
The world's pain
Almost
But there were no stars
A Ticking Clock Slowly Overtakes Me
She sits and waits
Watching seconds tick by
And she dreams
Of Better Days,
Weeks,
Years
She waits
For time
For when it runs by
Thinking only of the future
Then
Horror strikes her and
Terror forms and unvoiced cry
A realization crashing in
that she waits
for Death
Cold air comes and chills her soul
Thinking, perhaps
She will run out of time for her future
Cold air
Cold thoughts
And two words: No time.
Watching seconds tick by
And she dreams
Of Better Days,
Weeks,
Years
She waits
For time
For when it runs by
Thinking only of the future
Then
Horror strikes her and
Terror forms and unvoiced cry
A realization crashing in
that she waits
for Death
Cold air comes and chills her soul
Thinking, perhaps
She will run out of time for her future
Cold air
Cold thoughts
And two words: No time.
Dying by Shadows
They murder my very soul
Digging blood coated finger nails through my skin
Ripping at my essence
My ME
I am unable to hide
From this part of me
This miserable, lonely part of me
And it kills me slowly
Inside my heart is invaded
And left in ashes
I sit, huddled
Crying
These shadows
Biting through my last defenses
Until nothing is left
Nothing to tear away
I'm dying
Dying by shadows
Digging blood coated finger nails through my skin
Ripping at my essence
My ME
I am unable to hide
From this part of me
This miserable, lonely part of me
And it kills me slowly
Inside my heart is invaded
And left in ashes
I sit, huddled
Crying
These shadows
Biting through my last defenses
Until nothing is left
Nothing to tear away
I'm dying
Dying by shadows
Le Theatre
In the eerie, deathly glow
Starts a haunted, ghastly
Bringing fear and shocks of fright
In a horrid greenish light
Figures dance across the stage
Bringing about a treacherous age
Showing scenes of nightmarish horror
Shocking images of terror
Life all passes, green and red
Layers of the horror shed
Martyrs dying without a cause
Tortured souls with no clause
Fascination with the dead
Bodies fall, heavy as lead
Soul-less bodies, burning in fire
Hopelessness, the world turns dire
Now blue, the stage, suddenly turns
In angel eyes, a soul now burns
Spirits rise around it's sword
Circling and rising forward
And then the curtains all fall back
As the stage goes deathly black
Starts a haunted, ghastly
Bringing fear and shocks of fright
In a horrid greenish light
Figures dance across the stage
Bringing about a treacherous age
Showing scenes of nightmarish horror
Shocking images of terror
Life all passes, green and red
Layers of the horror shed
Martyrs dying without a cause
Tortured souls with no clause
Fascination with the dead
Bodies fall, heavy as lead
Soul-less bodies, burning in fire
Hopelessness, the world turns dire
Now blue, the stage, suddenly turns
In angel eyes, a soul now burns
Spirits rise around it's sword
Circling and rising forward
And then the curtains all fall back
As the stage goes deathly black
Ode to Chaos
Stand Aside
Let us meddle with the fates
Whose to say chaos cannot control?
We all do not love your ordered ways
And we all will not quit.
We will live for the time
When Order is defeated and Chaos reigns.
Stand aside.
Let us meddle with the fates
Whose to say chaos cannot control?
We all do not love your ordered ways
And we all will not quit.
We will live for the time
When Order is defeated and Chaos reigns.
Stand aside.
Untitled
A silver disk, a lighted candle
Shining on to me
Giving me the hope of freedom
So one day I will be free
Solid grey, a rock, a stone
I sit on today
It seems so cold and so forbidding
Not like the moon, my light
The grass is wet, not from my tears
For those do not exist
But inside, my tears are cried
And their my pain persists
I rise from without the grass
I do not want it's lonely touch
And as the wind rustles my hair
I leave my sorrow for just such
As the night which seems so dark
But truly is as light as day
If you watch the shining stars
And listen to the words they say
Shining on to me
Giving me the hope of freedom
So one day I will be free
Solid grey, a rock, a stone
I sit on today
It seems so cold and so forbidding
Not like the moon, my light
The grass is wet, not from my tears
For those do not exist
But inside, my tears are cried
And their my pain persists
I rise from without the grass
I do not want it's lonely touch
And as the wind rustles my hair
I leave my sorrow for just such
As the night which seems so dark
But truly is as light as day
If you watch the shining stars
And listen to the words they say
A Poem To A Friend, Written Long Ago
Quiet is the woods around,
Silent is the surrounding,
Then suddenly, there is a sound
Of a young girl, who is drowning
Cold water rushes through her hair,
Passing through her very being,
She screams a silent shout of death,
For soon, she will know nothing
Life she knows is disappearing,
For nothings left to make her fight,
To stay alive, to fight the tide,
She has nothing to keep in sight
And slowly drifting down, she is,
Until a pull, she feels,
Someone trying to save her life,
Hold her until her wounds are healed
She doesn't fight this kind, strong grasp
But neither will she aid,
Who knows if this friend of hers,
Will stop and then will fade?
Silent is the surrounding,
Then suddenly, there is a sound
Of a young girl, who is drowning
Cold water rushes through her hair,
Passing through her very being,
She screams a silent shout of death,
For soon, she will know nothing
Life she knows is disappearing,
For nothings left to make her fight,
To stay alive, to fight the tide,
She has nothing to keep in sight
And slowly drifting down, she is,
Until a pull, she feels,
Someone trying to save her life,
Hold her until her wounds are healed
She doesn't fight this kind, strong grasp
But neither will she aid,
Who knows if this friend of hers,
Will stop and then will fade?
Understanding the World Around
Lights
Shining down
Calming my train wrecked soul
So I can breathe
If only once
And then of course the eye of the storm is gone
And my head screams
My heart cries out
My soul screeches
It's anguish to the high heavens
Letting all this fall wildly around me
Unable to understand
The Sound
And so I look to the waves rolling lightly about me
Feel this cool breeze
Even though I know
It all is just
My demented illusions
My unknown delusions
I stop
I am no longer speaking
I am just tumbling forth
my Thoughts
All unorganized
And then comes that slight moment of clarity
I understand the rolling waves
The light breeze
The shining lights
And then
For just a second
I understand the sound
Shining down
Calming my train wrecked soul
So I can breathe
If only once
And then of course the eye of the storm is gone
And my head screams
My heart cries out
My soul screeches
It's anguish to the high heavens
Letting all this fall wildly around me
Unable to understand
The Sound
And so I look to the waves rolling lightly about me
Feel this cool breeze
Even though I know
It all is just
My demented illusions
My unknown delusions
I stop
I am no longer speaking
I am just tumbling forth
my Thoughts
All unorganized
And then comes that slight moment of clarity
I understand the rolling waves
The light breeze
The shining lights
And then
For just a second
I understand the sound
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