Crying, Lost to Their Sight

I’m lost to their love
Though I can say that they’ve tried
But though they are with me
They’ve set me aside

It’s true that they love me
And if they could they would try
Though nothing they say
Would stop the tears that Id cry

For all that they uttered
To comfort my tears
Would be silken lies
Whispered in my ears

And though I’m still loved
It will never be me
My place will be second
But I’ll let them be free

I won’t call their bluff
When they say it’s me too
When they tell me I’m special
When they tell me it’s true

And I’ll hide the truth
That which I know
I’ll hide my tears
And nothing will show

And it’s true that they love me
But it will soon fade away
For they give all they can
And they have no more to say

Because I’m lost to their love
Though they say that they’ve tried
We all keep pretending
We’re showered in lies

The Little Sadnesses

The little sadness’s of every day
They weigh upon my heart, my soul, my being
And despite every sweet soft word they say
The respite’s not enough to let me sing

The weary day, which darkens in the east
The fading light, which hearkens to the west
I cannot hear the star’s song in the least
And never was I worst than at my best

Losing ground and time and life now, quicker
Then the rushing waves and changing tides
When we all were young than we would bicker
But now the empty memories subside

The lost are lost, they never could be saved
This road is broken, which they tried to pave.

Willow Leaves

Wherever, whomever, whatever it be
I will stay there, right beside thee
Why ever, how ever, do not ask me
I do not know, I need no decree

For ever, for never, whoever was sure?
I have never known naught and I cannot concur
For time is unfaithful and lovers are bound
By time and by space and by love and by sound

There is all, there is naught, there is only me
I am full, I am hollow, I'm blind and I see
Wherever I go, should I know where I am
I can only be lost, I will always be damned

Why ever, now never, is all that is left
The giving and taking has left me bereft
And only you always leave me this way
Filled full of words and with nothing to say

A Fallen Star Will Yearn For Home

Surrounded by the cold night, she burns bright
But longs for many things a star should not
And so she falls and releases her light
Inside a tangled web she is now caught

There is a reason stars are far away
Far from all things which may wander too near
She burned too hot to stand the heat of day
The world was strange and filled her heart with fear

That which had pulled her down still had a hold
And she continued seeking for its source
But the fire inside had turned cold
And her decision now held much remorse

Oh true, she had found love and it was sweet
But she did not belong and oft it showed
Her spark and passion had lost most its heat
The weight of life became a heavy load

It happens when a star falls down to earth
And tries to be that which it knows its not
It loses most its warmth and most its mirth
Into a tangled web, the star is caught

But sometimes for the star it is enough
To learn of things it never would have known
To have learned love, although it might be rough
To trade fire for a light that different' shone

A fallen star will sometimes yearn for home
But even if she could, she would not leave
The tangled web that would not let her roam
Now holds her safe in its protective sieve

A star that comes to earth will change too much
To ever live alone within the sky
They learn to love to laugh to dream as such
That in the empty night they would now die

Sometimes a star will gaze into the night
And feel a tug for home, and miss the song
That she once sang and sent out on her light
And for the past she will begin to long

But the earth is full of those who fell
Who once looked down and wanted to be more
They saw life and love,and could not quell
The longing which took root within their core

Because the stars are watchers of the worlds
They watch the joy and sorrow, life and death
Turtles of the sky, around they swirled
Their lives too long, too slow to see a breath

Some never learn to bear the joy and pain
To bear the quickness with which seasons change
Some never adapt, driven insane
Some keep themselves apart and out of range

But others find they've gained more than they lost
And see the stars and do not need their song
The love they gained was more than worth the cost
They once more hear their song, and sing along