Heart Ache

My heart crumbles within my chest
Soon there will be naught but ashes
But still my mind won't turn itself from thoughts of you
This pain within, I cannot banish
And though I know you have finnished loving me,
I cannot let you go
Because I do not feel like I have finished loving you

It hurts more than just from losing you though,
Part of the pain is from not thinking it was worth talking about
Before it got this far,
For giving up on me like this,
Making me feel 13 years old again
In a new foster home
Hoping this time they would love me enough to keep me
That this time they wouldn't send me back
When they realized I was not
In fact perfect

And though rationally,
I know that you are finished with me
I can't help but hope
Deep deep inside
That you can forgive me